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 This is my baseline appearance, on the first day I took a shot of testosterone.

I am a female-to-male transsexual who was diagnosed with Gender Identity Disorder and have been living under a male identity for over 2 years. As I was never diagnosed with Childhood Gender Identity Disorder and was gender-conforming as a child, I have Late Onset Gender Dysphoria. Although I have a sexual preference for women, I am also sexually attracted to other FTMs. I have a theory as to why this is, and hope that my sexual orientation will reveal itself the longer I stay on testosterone. While I currently describe myself as "transsexual", there is also a possibility that I was misdiagnosed by my therapist. Only time will tell whether this was a mistake. I own the choices I made, and accept the circumstances that brought me to this point.

Here, I discuss my immediate reaction to starting testosterone, including the initial anxiety followed by a surge of energy and attenuation of anxiety.

If anyone was curious, I did go back to the gym, but I only did cardio.


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